TOTALLY confused... & disoriented

sometimes when u thought u've gotten over something, it's better to continue bluffing yourself.

i hate to bring back the past memories & feelings, yet i did it juz 2 days ago... unintentionally though. suddenly i'm overwhelmed by all these irritating feelings that i've no idea how to get rid off. i can say i'm literally tormented.. by myself, my own feelings. funny isn't it... ?

i'm confused...

i always hear people saying... "u juz need to move on, leave the rest of the things to time". what is it about the rest of the things??? how can u move on when u leave part of yourself behind???? the damn time cannot do anything but leaving an invisible scar in me. & probably it's being ripped open brutally before it could heal properly. & i juz did it 2 days ago. hahaha... = ="how ironic... yes IRONIC.

*sigh* i may be the most stupid gal in the entire world...