Who's lying?

Only words will lie
Feelings will always be truthful...

i've been lying to almost everyone around me, even myself. but my feelings wont budge & this results in the constant torment of my short-circuited brain. =_=||| i'm really feeling very very very bad now.... i need to make a choice, but both choices are equally hard to carry out. jelly used to say if i refuse to give up, means i still have hopes. actually i dont want to have any hope.. but somehow it's really hard to make myself be despaired.

i really want to ask _ _ _. though i doubt i will ever have the courage to open my mouth, not to mention the courage to face the consequences after i asked. T^T *sigh* in the end, things will juz die off on their own... & may b this is the best to me. cos i'm tired... way too tired....

it's really sorrowful to see me sinking in the lies that are weaved by myself.