The failure of life

i thought everyone will somehow... b good in certain areas. sadly, i don't see this happening to me. =( i can neither handle my academics well nor manage my emotions. *bang wall* i'm flunking maths tests, as usual, + not able to reach the satisfactory level for other subjects. not to mention sc0re welll.... =_=" i think as a maths retard, i need to do what i've done in NYGH, finishing the WHOLE booklet of specimen papers to save my grade from the pit.
wa... or may be i should do the TYS twice? hmm.... zzz.


& i still refuse to accept that i'm sentimental despite what jelly said. i mean juz when do u see the astrology books using 'sentimental', or words of similar meanings on ARIES???? i'm an ariessss~~~ the impulsive, assertive & passionate ARIESSSS~~~~ muahahaha~!


i also realise that having short term memory is actually a good thing. cos i tend to rmb sad things for a much longer period of time. so i'm willing to trade my short termed happiness for long termed amnesia... juz to get peaceeeeeee. now, i really want to be Dory from Finding Nemo.......

erm, so what exactly did i say i want to be juz now???? or did i even say i want to be someone???????


............. whatever.


some pple juz don't know how to cherish what they have now. like jian hao.... i think he likes grace but he simply refuses to admit or do anything about it. dots... may be he doesn't know how lucky he is to be in this situation nowww (+ he still dares to say it's embarrassing)... & he doesn't know how HORRIBLE it feels to go through all the mental sufferings, YET NO ONE KNOWS. well, may be not really no one... but it's the person...... nvm. anyway it's definitely suffering for nothing. *bang wallllllllllllll*