I've violated the rule

i've violated the most important rule in an ambiguous relationship. that is to let its uncertainties affect my mood... or rather, affect my thoughts. it feels like something...one..whatever ... is invading my brain. =.=" well, as the penalty, i will send myself out of the field. -MIA until the feelings disppear-

dumbo Jelly shall keep it to herself unless i'm no longer in singapore.

Pea i'm really sorry. gomen nasai. dui bu qi. >_< i will sms you another time to tell you what happened.

ps. Soukyuu no Fafner is the most awesome anime that i've seen recently.
white PSP is the hottest thing i've ever held in my hands.
ya i know there's no link..oh well...

What's wrong with us?

i must be mentally unstable lately to keep talking and meeting up the person whom i hate. in fact, it's more like we hate each other... supposedly =.=" i have totally no idea why this is happening though. shall i call this 'behaviour deviation' ?

i hope someone's kind enough to enlighten me...

... I need a memory wipe

how i wish my brain is 1 gigantic memory card. So i won't get choked by my memories.

i realised when a person died, all the related memories of him will become so... elusive. the past feels surreal. was it in my head only or it did happen?? and i can't stop wondering what was the last thing on his mind seconds before his heart stopped beating.

i feel lonely all of a sudden. it doesn't help even when i'm surrounded by people or walking along Orchard road. it's the feeling of emptiness that gets stronger as day of his wake approaches. i'm so lonely... lonely .... lonely... lonely... lonely... lonely... lonely... lonely and i doubt anyone can help me.

MIA.