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23 August 2006

If only everything really was in Black and White

both literally and metaphorically.

no grey areas pls. and everything's clear-cut with distinct contrast.

i don't mind giving up on pink for the dull but glaring combination. at least i get to live in true and simple bliss instead of being delusional colourful. it's soooooo hard to be happy now though happiness used to be just a candy or a toy.

and i wont ever crack my brain to ponder if i did the right thing. it leads to lethargy for me, not the common concept of brain activity is proportional to intelligence. also, it BLOODY HURTS to get involved in such ambiguous situations sometimes. it hurts... seriously.

i'm mentally exhausted.

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17 August 2006

Till a time I can say that I liked you but never will again

I'll pack you up in a pretty box, put you away in a corner, till time passes and dust collects and maturity lifts my rose-tinted glasses; till naivety gives way to disillusionment; till i can face this with my poker face and find my emotions separate from my memories.

Till a time I can say, perhaps to an unworthy audience, that I loved* liked you but never will again.

-part of anru's entry that speaks my mind

*it's ostensible. apparently when it comes to relationships among people, love only exists among family members and friends who are like family members. anru, sorry to say that i disagree with you on this. =x

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07 August 2006

ETERNAL SNOW

the BEST melancholic anime song... ever. both the music and the lyrics are simply beautiful. too bad the english translation that appears on most of the sites sucks. some of the lines don't even make sense. it feels like reading stuffs from Babel Fish directly =.="

luckily, i've found the more accurate translation from the anime's subtitles. i shall post it since it really suits my mood, unfortunately.


ETERNAL SNOW (from Full Moon wo Sagashite) - Changin' My Life

君を好きになって
I fell in love with you
どれくらい経つのかナ?
Just how long has it been since then?
気持ち 膨らんでゆくばかりで
My feelings have been only getting stronger
君は この思い気付いているのかナ?
I wonder... have you realised how I feel?
一度も言葉には してないけど
Even though I've never said a word

雪のように ただ静かに
It's like snowflakes drifting... quietly...
降り積もり つづけてゆく
continuing to pile up higher and higher

Hold me tight こんな思いなら
Hold me tight... if this is how it feels
誰かを好きになる気持ち
The feeling of falling in love with someone
知りたくなかったよ
I never wanted to know this feeling
I love you 涙止まらない
I love you. I can't stop my tears from falling
こんなんじゃ 君のこと
In that case, then you...
知らずにいれば 良かったよ
should never have come into my life

君をいつまで 思っているのかナ?
I wonder... how long will I keep thinking about you
ため息が窓ガラス 曇らせた
My sighs are fogging up the window glass
揺れる心 灯すキャンドルで
My trembling heart is next to the lit candle...
今溶かして ゆけないかナ?
and melting now. I wonder... will it survive?

Hold me tight 折れるほど強く
Hold me tight. So tight that I might break
木枯らし 吹雪に出会っても
So that when we meet in the frigid gale of a blizzard...
寒くないようにと
I won't be cold anymore
I miss you 君を思うたび
I miss you. Everytime I think of you...
編みかけの このマフラー
with this hand-knit muffler
今夜も一人 抱きしめるよ
I'm here alone, holding myself again tonight

永遠に 降る雪があるなら
If the snow keeps on falling forever...
君へと続くこの思い 隠せるのかナ?
will it cover up my feelings for you?

Hold me tight こんな思いなら
Hold me tight... if this is how it feels
誰かを好きになる気持ち
The feeling of falling in love with someone
知りたくなかったよ
I never wanted to know this feeling
I love you 胸に込み上げる
I love you... it's filling up my heart
冬空に叫びたい
I want to shout to the winter sky
今すぐ君に 会いたいよ
I want to meet you right now

Hold me tight

I love you

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