Happy Bday: happy tearing!

words can't do the magical night justice, of friends treated me dinner in Siam Lotus to celebrate my bday. never thought i would receive heaps of presents when simply driving down to the restaurant (& drove me there) on sunday night alone made it one of the happiest days in the year. all the fluttering emotions, largely gratitudes, came down to tears despite my hatred towards such an apparent bimbotic & melodramatic behaviour. i'm so not used to crying in front of a close friend, let alone a group of friends.

"happy tearing!" so Yejin said. what a perfect wish; one that easily lifts all traces of anguish. only if i could live the rest of my life tearing happily most of the time instead of crying, or worse, weeping without tears.
hence a wish, not a hope.

they turned my desperate attempts in fighting back tears to a complete failure, especially him. i never expect him to pick up my casual convo & went through all the troubles to get me the AX top. & his "so does it make you like me less if i bought you the Lacoste polo? wow, it's such a value for money!" i guess the moment will always shine in my memory.

i made myself a promise at the beginning of the year, and broke it after all the struggles. perhaps, for the first time, it's guilt-free, hopefully.