Crying for the moon

"Moon Crying" is Koda Kumi's latest single. i'm sure the perplexing title has raised a few eyebrows. i, too, were puzzled by the seemingly irrelevant title... till i read through the lyrics.

逢いたい気持ちは
どんなに伝えても 伝えきれない

言葉に出来ない想いを
この歌で今伝えたい
溢れ出した気持ちが届くなら
君を想い 歌いたいよ

a dream. to put it in a more glorified term, it's a 'wish'.

ずっと　ずっと　側に居たい
繋いだ手を離さないで…

it's indeed crying for the moon.


my mum has nagged me numerous times about going home but i simply brush it off, everytime, with such a shaky excuse- hate flying. i'm guilty of it in all sense. though, as long as it conceals my fear of confronting what i have lost in exchange of a winged me, i'm fine with it. yes, it's a phobia; the related symptoms are my disdain towards looking back and my selective amnesia.

i was having an epiphany about growing up when i tried to sort out my dilemma towards going back to Singapore. for once, it was pretty clear to me that i'm still the spoilt princess, emotion-wise, greedy and yearning for everything. yet i seem to have failed the first step in order to bear the weight of 'everything' - to be emotionless. (the credit goes to Kevin Q. )

ahhh... enough of my emo rantings. i'm seriously looking forward to going to Canada with Jelly. hey, it's our 1st overseas trip in conjunction with the 10-year anniversary of our precious friendship! =puke= lol. omg. i feel old now.

ps. i think i've hurt another person with my horrendously inexpressive communication skills. between taking care of his feelings and getting the meaning across, i've picked the latter. coz i know it prevents more heartaches in future.
i'm sorry.
=sigh= i still can't end the entry on a happier note. =.="