Maturity is such a ... lonely word.

you've been smiling...you've always been smiling, smiling through heartbreaks & loneliness. is it a conundrum?


i always want to know how it's like to be...unfeeling. is it a state of absolute tranquility? that inner peace which i long yearn to achieve? for all i know, i'm willing to trade all my happiness for that peacefulness. just when i thought that i had found enough proof to shut my heart, the little voice spoke up again.


"may be... it's different... this time."


it was the first time i came to realise that even being a coward needs to have a great deal of courage. & i don't even have that amount of courage to avoid the pain. is it the glorified devilish desire commonly known as... hope?


i need more wisdom. i need a lot more wisdom to fall with dignity... or rather to face it with dignity every time i fall.


you just have to keep smiling, don't you?