I want to sit by the sea...

it's funny. i grow up in an island country and have been to most of the popular places by sea, yet i still have the sudden urge to see the sea... now.


Just sitting on the beach and listening to waves crashing.


but Miami beaches, in fact most of the beaches that i've been to, are too touristy...too ostentatious.

i still want to go though. really want to....

还是欲望这种本能 会让人忘了有多心疼
只是不知 无论如何 到了最后 还不是....

一个人

Ai Ai Gasa

the cruise is amazing. it makes the end of spring break such a disappointment and the back-to-reality school life almost cruel.


ever felt clueless of how to keep something/someone so precious, safe, in all sense? i want to know him; understand the meaning of every glance, every barely-noticeable smile, every contemplative frown. he once said that he knows so much about me but i know so little about him. i want it to be 'we know equally well about each other'.
however, i'm worried that by being around him all the time, i will suck out all oxygen and snuff out the life of him & the relationship. how i wish the idea of 'healthy distance' is tangible. 10cm? an arm's length? 2hrs per day?


may be it's time to be a little bit selfish... at risk of suffocating him. haaaa...

Nau Ko'u Aloha

My heart is no longer lonely as I hold you close to me.
I wait in eagerness.
I've come to realize that when your heart is broken,
My heart will only beat for you.
You are the Song to my heart.
I search with an uncertain hand,
With breathless kisses,
A burning desire,
Hoping this moment will will last forever.

At last I can love completely,
Without complete understanding.

Our hearts beat in time together to make that perfect moment.
You are more than love to me,
You are everything.

Nau ko'u aloha
My love is yours.

this is way beyond sweet or romantic. i wish i'm blessed with the ability to express my feelings when words simply can't do the card any justice. surprisingly, i wasn't moved to tears for tearing releases emotions. i hope to seal the feeling in myself; i hope it's able to diffuse like perfume in future - with the density and the strength.


may be i've gained a little more wisdom the moment i felt thankful to the past heartaches and failed relationships. coz they've taught me what NOT to do to my love, to shelter him from things that carved my heart.

may my love spread his wings with the tender of black-veiled night sky. <3