If you walked away, keep walking.

it's all purplish and about to rain. the night sky is always so illuminated that i can't see a single star. i wish i could say


大丈夫。恋しがらないよ。but i can't. it's a fact; it's nothing new - i'm missing you.


has it reached the dangerous point where you've become such an important part of my life that the mere thought of you stepping out of it seemed so... unbearable? you've made me so happy that it feels surreal. as if i was consuming my happiness in future and paying a high interest later in the form of misery.


that's not my greatest fear. neither is you leaving for good or with someone. my greatest fear is me becoming your safety net.

instead of loving me, you love one part about me but hate the rest.
instead of longing to be around me, you feel obligated to stay.
instead of savoring the shared memories, you feel sorry to abandone them.

it's everything - apology, regrets, responsibilities, time- everything else but your very own desires and passion AND LOVE. i've faded completely to 'just another face' in your life. with excessive burden.

if this happened... please walk away from me. never turn back.